Category Archives: Diet

Where am I?


IMG_0274Things have not been going so well in the weight loss department. On any given day the scale says 176-179 now, and I had been down to 172. It was hard focusing on weight loss while going through fertility treatments because I am an emotional eater. And infertility is an extremely emotional disease. We’re on a break from treatments until October though, and I had hoped to re-vamp my efforts. It hasn’t happened. Summer hit, and I keep getting the urge to splurge on ice cream and fried cauliflower. I haven’t been counting my calories, nor using the best judgement. I own up to that, but where do we go from here?

I haven’t neglected my work outs. I still jog 3 miles 3x a week. I also try to walk, weather permitting, whether it’s just a quick walk around the block,  the library (3 miles round trip), or the zoo (5 miles round trip). I keep hoping to add more yoga, utilize my Kinect, or try a workout video- that hasn’t happened yet either. It’s hot, and we don’t have central air conditioning (just a unit in one room of the house) so that does put a damper on things. The humidity and heat combine so that getting chores around the house is hard, let alone workouts. I had hoped to improve my lung capacity and put my asthma in check, but as I’ve aged it’s only gotten worse. I quit smoking (for good) almost three years ago, and yet my asthma is worse now than it was then. I’m still jogging though, and that’s 500 cal a jog. I’ve increased my speed to 5mph, up from my original 2.5mph. I’m putting the effort out there, and despite the chronic back pain, I haven’t let up.

My room for improvement lays in my diet, and my determination. I need to count my calories everyday, allowing myself an off day. I used to do this, but I stopped somewhere along the way. In the past few months I’ve been yo-yo’ing, counting one day then not the rest of the week. Trying for two days, then throwing in the towel. Keeping under 1,500 cal is very difficult for me. I’m always hungry. A little hunger is normal, it’s a good thing, but I feel ravenous all the time. I’m trying to make healthier choices though. I bought healthier snacks, more fruit, better lunch options, and started meal planning. Today I had cereal, then a veggie pita with cucumbers, swiss cheese, peppercorn ranch, and lettuce, with a cup of grapes. For dinner it’s going to be a tuna casserole, which could be healthier, but it’ll do. I wrote out all the dinners for the week, so there is less hemming and hawing over lunch/dinner during the week. I used to meal plan, but stopped when I landed on bed rest in my pregnancy.

I’m a big fan of meal planning, but it also makes me realize how limited I am in my meals. I’m going to have to leaf through my cook books and maybe introduce a “new recipe” night. I don’t always do well with trying new foods. I am an extremely picky eater. My husband is on the other end of the spectrum, he’ll eat anything, so he doesn’t have a problem with trying new things. For me though, most of the time I make something new and don’t end up eating it. It’s something I’ve tried to work on over the years. My latest was mulberry pie. I’m not a baked fruit fan, but I have an overzealous mulberry tree in my yard, so I decided to make use of it this year. First bite was hesitant, but I’m hooked now. Not the healthiest option but it’s something new, and I’m using berries that would otherwise just be littering my yard.

So that’s where things stand. I haven’t regained a ton, but it’s still a significant setback. I need to do better, and this break is the perfect opportunity. By September I’m hoping to be a little smaller, otherwise I might have trouble with my bridesmaid dress. And we do not want that! In October or November we’re returning to the fertility clinic for another go, and it won’t hurt to be a little smaller for that. The closer I am to me ideal weight, the better. Here’s to hoping this week can be the launching point I need!


Varying it up a bit!


I’ve been in a slump. That’s the nice way to put it. I’ve been depressed. Unmotivated. Slovenly. Okay, maybe not slovenly– my only saving grace, the only reason I haven’t been regaining, is my obstinance about jogging. But I could have been doing better in so many areas.

My challenges, after sorting it out, lie mostly in my daily calorie allowance. I could not stay within my recommended calories on Sparkpeople, not while burning through 500cal a workout. My take away calories were only 1,100, and a woman needs at least 1,200 to function. I would stay close to my calories, taking Sparkpeople’s guidelines and amending them… but it was still frustrating, it took time, it still told me I was failing even if I knew I wasn’t. Take into account my thyroid and insulin meds, well, the restrictions were a bit stifling too.

So, I decided to abandon ship. A lot of my friends use MyFitnessPal, so I’m giving it a try for a few weeks. So far, I love the feature that allows me more calories equivalent to my workout. I don’t feel like I’m starving anymore. Hungry? Yes- but not starving. I had a little bit of an issue working with entering my workouts, since I manually enter everything based on my treadmill and my jog that day… it’s a little confusing, and at first I didn’t think I could customize it every day. I think I’ve figured that out now though, so we’re good! All my recipes and meals have been saved on Sparkpeople, so it is a bit of a pain to have to reenter and find everything. You have to remember, I’ve used Sparkeople for years!

It’s different, the set up isn’t what I’m used to, but I’m going to stick it out for a few weeks and see where this takes me. I still love Sparkpeople, and I think it did great for those first 75lbs, but now my level of workout and needs aren’t getting met there. The last 25lbs have been stubborn. They aren’t coming off as easy, and it’s completely understandable- I’m not as active, I’m eating more, I’m lacking motivation.

And that’s the thing, the motivation… part of me is content at this weight, even if most of me isn’t. Part of me is already proud of what I’ve done, and doesn’t want to bother with going further. Part of me is tired of counting every single thing that goes in my mouth. Even tired of jogging at times. I guess you could say that I’m worn out? If I don’t get pregnant this year, I at least want to meet my goal weight though… so I need to get cracking.

I’ve been using MFP for a few days now, and so far I think it’s helping. The scale has went down a little bit, which is good, but we’ll see where it goes from here. Hopefully I’ll have much better news to report at the next weigh in!

In the meantime, I’ve been having issues with my son, my car, fertility treatments, my health insurance… just, so much STRESS. I know it’s not helping in the course of things, but hopefully we can power through this. Tomorrow is a new day. It’s starting to feel more like spring here, and hopefully things will begin evening out and starting anew.

Trying new things


First of all, my ankle/foot still hurts. It’s not excruciating, but it is sore. I still managed my jog yesterday though, and I plan on going to the zoo tomorrow and walking around anyway. Hopefully I won’t make it worse… after my jog yesterday it was pretty tender.

Tonight I made chicken, broccoli, and scalloped potatoes for dinner. I tossed around a few ideas to my husband, but that was our final decision. Chicken breast is a staple in our house, it’s fairly healthy, cheap, and versatile. It really can be dressed up in many different ways. A couple days ago I made it with enchilada sauce, over rice, black beans with bell peppers and onions. I almost always use rice with my dinner, which is probably a bad thing but it’s a staple in our household. It’s ridiculously cheap, and I love rice. I don’t go overboard with it though, so it could be worse.

There are of course wrong ways to use chicken breasts, and I’ve been bad about that myself. I often used it in my enchiladas, and that meal carried a hefty 900 calories! I tried reducing ingredients to bring it down, but the taste suffered. I tried splitting an enchilada between my husband and myself, but that just didn’t seem as filling. The meal I made with peppers, black beans, and rice is similar to my enchiladas; it lacks the cheese and tortilla though. I found it to be a fairly healthy substitute. It isn’t as good as my enchiladas, but it’ll do for more frequent meals. Enchiladas can maybe be split for a lunch food, or a rare treat on special occasions.
I’m trying to experiment more with healthier options though.

I’m not a chef, I’m not a dietician, I’m not even a decent cook (I’ll admit it.) The truth is, no one ever taught me to cook when I was growing up. When I moved out on my own, I was helpless. I’ve learned some things here and there, obviously, but I never really focused on what I was eating. A majority of my food was pre-made, pre-prepared, boxed, fast, and above all- easy. Especially in college, I used the excuse that I didn’t have the time. I was working 21-35hours a week and taking 15-20 credit hours most quarters… and yeah, that was insane. Maybe stupid. But I had bills to pay and I wanted to get college over with. I never took the time to look at what I was eating, to try new things, or to learn more recipes.

Of course now, I’m a stay at home mom. There’s no excuse for me not to make dinner every night. There’s no reason I can’t make things from scratch. There’s no reason I can’t try new recipes even. Yes, sometimes I get frazzled and we have rough nights full of screaming and nap refusals… but even then, I could be making something. I could learn to use my slow cooker, I could prepare things for dinner while my son is napping so it would take less time later, I could even spice up our lunches.

Since I’ve been using Sparkpeople again, I’ve got a better idea of what’s going into my body. That makes a huge difference in my decisions, especially when I know it’s between an apple and banana or that soda. I think it’s helped me to reevaluate my meals overall, and to make better decisions. Especially when it comes to meal planning. I try to keep dinner around 500-600 calories. And now, I know what that looks like. What is can taste like. So it’s not as hard as it could be otherwise. I’ve found that 500 calories can be just as awesome as 900.

I’m pinning recipes on my Pinterest board now, and hopefully I’ll be able to go back and print them. There are a few healthy options on there I’d love to try. Sometimes I surf for ideas too. Heck, maybe I’ll get around to looking at Sparkpeoples recipe section. I feel like I’m on the right track now, not perfect, but I’m getting there. One step at a time.